25th June 2007,
2.00pm, It's still my lunch time, so doing my blog before starting my work. Today am tired, and weary. Reached Penang last nite, about 9pm, then after dinner and packing my stuff, collapse into deep sleep. So tired.
Yesterday was stuck in KLIA for almost 5 hours. I was so confident that will able to get standby flight yesterday. My original departure is 7.15pm, but since nothing much in the conference, we went off after lunch. 5 hours time...even though tiring, but it's passed by very fast. Maybe because I didn't travel alone, was travelling with Mei Jen, the Head of Pharmacy in Loh Guan Lye Specialist Centre. This round workshop was very boring, the lecturers really boring, loaded us with "Educational and Scientific" lectures which is not really practical.
One surprise I wanna share here that's happening during the trip. There're 3 persons from penang attending the conference: myself, Mei Jen, and Ganesh from Pantai Mutiara. And I meet up with Ms Chua, from Fatimah Hospital, Ipoh. Usually whenever I go KL, I'll go out with my frens, Christian frens: Kawai, Angie, Lee Hua, Kenneth etc. But this round trip is different. I spent more time with Pharmacists, people I am not very close with. And thru this trip too, I get to know more about the persons. And guess what? I brought 3 frens to SIB Church. It's my first time attending the church, and 3 non-Christians were with me for the first time too. Isn't it cool?!!
Wow, I am tired, so tired today. Lack of sleep. Tonite will have meeting with Emmeline and Jerry on their wedding, am a Sub-corordinator again. Up to date, been co-ordinate for 4 times, plus with this one. I notice that weddings nowadays has become more 'fancy'. My fren spent more than RM55,000 just for a wedding. Gosh! Wedding is just for a moment, but marriage a lifetime. I wonder how my wedding will be? Oh oh..Shirley's Day-dreaming now...Hahahaha..
Monday, June 25, 2007
Thursday, June 21, 2007
Future...Thinking much
22th June 2007,
7.00pm Thursday. Am in the hospital, yup yup..I know it's late, but am not going home after this. Gonna be attending a talk on 'L-Dopa induced Motor Complication", at E&O Hotel, so staying back, gonna be going after this blog. Life is routine, I always said that. Nothing much to update nowadays, probably I just not good in expressing my thoughts in words.
Life is good, and should be greater each day. A positive note for the beginning. We had our Department Meeting yesterday, and Magdalene has announced to the staff that she is leaving. People were guessing the reasons behind it, some said, maybe she got better offer, a better prospect, another jokingly said, "Is she gonna get married?". Mag was bombarded with a lot of questions: 'Why are you leaving?". And she answered, oh, am starting anew, to relocate to Perlis to start a mission work. Jaw dropped! Everyone just couldn't believe it. Why? Why she do that? Leaving everything behind to go for mission? Oh! Some arguements, won't say arguement, maybe discussion going round about the same topic. She must be crazy, why make such unwise decision? She can just take a few months off, and try out before giving up the job and 'burn the bridge'?? Why?
Magdalene's resignation made me think a lot. What about me? Will I leave everything? Answering the calls. What is God's calling for me? Do I have such faith to leave? Or maybe venturing into some other opportunities? Hmm...will I able to be bold to explore other opportunitues or, am I closed myself and settle for what I have now? Hmm..I start to put on my thinking cap. I've been here for 4 years huh? Right from my internship, this considered as my 1st job. So when I gonna relocate? I've shared this to my staff, Choong. She said- No need, here is good enough for a gal- stable and safe position. Will I ever make my first move to relocate? Yeah, when the times right, if I have a better offer, I don't mind. Or, *grinning* if I ever get married out from Penang, I really don't mind. I am not really a career women, really! Never thought of climbing corporate ladder, or even be a Head of Pharmacy. My ambition is to be a 'wife' and a good 'mother'. Ohh!!! Somebody laugh at me now. Yes, really! Believe me! My heart is for home and family.
I have a Volunteer Pharmacist working with me. Her name is Connie, and she should be in her 30's plus, with 3 children and a Korean husband. She has not been working for 9 years, since she married to Korea, she has been a wife and mother to her children. Now, she's here in Penang, she wants to update her knowledge and refresh up, so she's voluntering attached here to learn. Nice lady, she shared a lot with me, and guess what? She even planning to introduce her husband's cousin who's still single to me. She said..he's rich and looking for a wife outside of Korea. Gee...I really can't imagine that.
Life is good, and I've come to certain level: mid-life, to think what I really want in life. Am I wasting my life? Do I enjoying my life? Am I being purposeful? Ecclesiastes: Vanity, vanity, everything is vanity. . . To fear God and heed the Commandment is the life.
7.00pm Thursday. Am in the hospital, yup yup..I know it's late, but am not going home after this. Gonna be attending a talk on 'L-Dopa induced Motor Complication", at E&O Hotel, so staying back, gonna be going after this blog. Life is routine, I always said that. Nothing much to update nowadays, probably I just not good in expressing my thoughts in words.
Life is good, and should be greater each day. A positive note for the beginning. We had our Department Meeting yesterday, and Magdalene has announced to the staff that she is leaving. People were guessing the reasons behind it, some said, maybe she got better offer, a better prospect, another jokingly said, "Is she gonna get married?". Mag was bombarded with a lot of questions: 'Why are you leaving?". And she answered, oh, am starting anew, to relocate to Perlis to start a mission work. Jaw dropped! Everyone just couldn't believe it. Why? Why she do that? Leaving everything behind to go for mission? Oh! Some arguements, won't say arguement, maybe discussion going round about the same topic. She must be crazy, why make such unwise decision? She can just take a few months off, and try out before giving up the job and 'burn the bridge'?? Why?
Magdalene's resignation made me think a lot. What about me? Will I leave everything? Answering the calls. What is God's calling for me? Do I have such faith to leave? Or maybe venturing into some other opportunities? Hmm...will I able to be bold to explore other opportunitues or, am I closed myself and settle for what I have now? Hmm..I start to put on my thinking cap. I've been here for 4 years huh? Right from my internship, this considered as my 1st job. So when I gonna relocate? I've shared this to my staff, Choong. She said- No need, here is good enough for a gal- stable and safe position. Will I ever make my first move to relocate? Yeah, when the times right, if I have a better offer, I don't mind. Or, *grinning* if I ever get married out from Penang, I really don't mind. I am not really a career women, really! Never thought of climbing corporate ladder, or even be a Head of Pharmacy. My ambition is to be a 'wife' and a good 'mother'. Ohh!!! Somebody laugh at me now. Yes, really! Believe me! My heart is for home and family.
I have a Volunteer Pharmacist working with me. Her name is Connie, and she should be in her 30's plus, with 3 children and a Korean husband. She has not been working for 9 years, since she married to Korea, she has been a wife and mother to her children. Now, she's here in Penang, she wants to update her knowledge and refresh up, so she's voluntering attached here to learn. Nice lady, she shared a lot with me, and guess what? She even planning to introduce her husband's cousin who's still single to me. She said..he's rich and looking for a wife outside of Korea. Gee...I really can't imagine that.
Life is good, and I've come to certain level: mid-life, to think what I really want in life. Am I wasting my life? Do I enjoying my life? Am I being purposeful? Ecclesiastes: Vanity, vanity, everything is vanity. . . To fear God and heed the Commandment is the life.
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
Nothing Less Than God's Best
12th June 2007,
5.00pm Tuesday. :PP Yeah, been So SO long didn't update my blogs. Life is just so so busy. Or maybe didn't really 'make' time for blogging. Was thinking better not to delay anymore, or else will forgotten what I wanna mark on my journey throughout the months.
Today I created a door-sign: "SORRY...REAL BUSY, DO NOT DISTURB" and hang it on my door. Yeah, got to do that, or else too many people to entertain, my work will not get done. Work is alright, today I received a call from someone saying that my ex-boss will be joining Mount Miriam this Monday, and will be the Head of Pharmacy there. At that point when hearing such news, am pretty threaten, am afraid he will pull my staff to join Mt Miriam, but after thinking a while, I don't think my staff will join there. I am proudly said Gleneagles is a very good company, much better benefit compared to other company, and moreover I'm such a good boss. Right?! I think many will agree with me on that. :PP
Magdalene has hand over her resignation letter. She confirmed leaving the coming Sept 9th or even earlier, and I will be interviewing another gal this coming Friday. She's previously working as Regulatory Pharmacist with Bayer with Managerial Position, and now applying here. And furthermore, she's much older than me. Quite scare, a thought comes in, that she may threathen my position here. Oh...how foolish Shirley can be, thinking such things, an insult to God, insecurity? Position? Oh, I should look to God, He is the rewarder of all things. I'm secure in Him, and in Him alone. Gonna take hold of that.
Just now my coursemate called, she thought I'm gonna resign. I told her no, it's wrong rumour. I will still stay, until when? I really don't know, until when? What is my future like? What I'm gonna be doing 10 years down the road? What is my plan maybe 5 years from now? Oh...I really don't know. I am doing my best in work, in family, in church. Other than that, I really don't know.
My future is in Your Hands Lord. I claim on Your promises, You always have a good plan for me, to prosper me and not to harm me, to give me hope and future. I commit my desires to You, nothing less than Your best. I hold on to You, knowing every good and perfect gift is from You, and Yours is the best, nothing less than Your best. Lord, I'm not gonna give my soul to another..only You deserve my highest praise.
5.00pm Tuesday. :PP Yeah, been So SO long didn't update my blogs. Life is just so so busy. Or maybe didn't really 'make' time for blogging. Was thinking better not to delay anymore, or else will forgotten what I wanna mark on my journey throughout the months.
Today I created a door-sign: "SORRY...REAL BUSY, DO NOT DISTURB" and hang it on my door. Yeah, got to do that, or else too many people to entertain, my work will not get done. Work is alright, today I received a call from someone saying that my ex-boss will be joining Mount Miriam this Monday, and will be the Head of Pharmacy there. At that point when hearing such news, am pretty threaten, am afraid he will pull my staff to join Mt Miriam, but after thinking a while, I don't think my staff will join there. I am proudly said Gleneagles is a very good company, much better benefit compared to other company, and moreover I'm such a good boss. Right?! I think many will agree with me on that. :PP
Magdalene has hand over her resignation letter. She confirmed leaving the coming Sept 9th or even earlier, and I will be interviewing another gal this coming Friday. She's previously working as Regulatory Pharmacist with Bayer with Managerial Position, and now applying here. And furthermore, she's much older than me. Quite scare, a thought comes in, that she may threathen my position here. Oh...how foolish Shirley can be, thinking such things, an insult to God, insecurity? Position? Oh, I should look to God, He is the rewarder of all things. I'm secure in Him, and in Him alone. Gonna take hold of that.
Just now my coursemate called, she thought I'm gonna resign. I told her no, it's wrong rumour. I will still stay, until when? I really don't know, until when? What is my future like? What I'm gonna be doing 10 years down the road? What is my plan maybe 5 years from now? Oh...I really don't know. I am doing my best in work, in family, in church. Other than that, I really don't know.
My future is in Your Hands Lord. I claim on Your promises, You always have a good plan for me, to prosper me and not to harm me, to give me hope and future. I commit my desires to You, nothing less than Your best. I hold on to You, knowing every good and perfect gift is from You, and Yours is the best, nothing less than Your best. Lord, I'm not gonna give my soul to another..only You deserve my highest praise.
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